Perspective

In my personal life, 2013 has been the year of fresh perspective.  I have ridden a roller coaster of love and hate this year.  I've come very close to giving up on my family.  I've come very close to giving up existence.  However, I also opened my mind up to new experiences and goals.  I opened my heart to allow a deeper love to penetrate. 
Some days I feel especially aware of the suffering and the hidden pain in my community.  Some days I feel I'm wearing "truth-glasses" and can see people for what they really are.  Some days I challenge the concept of "time."  Yet some days I challenge the entire concept of "existence." 
I feel very in touch with nature, though.  Nature feels "real."  I understand animals, plants, weather on a MUCH higher level than all the man-made distractions.  I feel I am a part of nature.  I am NOT a part of technology.  Perhaps I'm taking my "first world problems" for granted. 
Reflecting on this year has made me realize one thing.  I have the power to change things, but I must start with "me."  I can change my physicality, my spirituality, my mind.  I must improve my mental and physical health.  I must also keep in mind what my greater goals are. 
My biggest goals involve meaningful connections.  That's what keeps people going...connections.  Energy is shared through connections.  Emanating positive energy...now THAT is a goal.